AsSalams, I have left the blogging world quite a while now. And I have lose so much without it I think. I used to pour and vent out my feelings here, and whenever I read through it again, I got up feeling the necessity to become and improved person. Look at me now, am so down and empty.. If I ever knew Mama's gonna be gone.. I would never leave her out of my sight, not a single second.. If I knew I had so much difficulty coping with work, I would never have joined the workforce.. And if I knew I had wasted so much time.. I would never want to spend a single second having fun and laughing nonsense.. But I never knew what was meant for me.. But I know, I am expected to do it with iman, faith and dedication.. And yes Allah.. I did not regret any single step I took.. I promise that I will make a better muslimah whichever path I am destined to be.. Am trying hard ... please Allah.. shower me with your blessings.. Please forgive Mama and let her be Jannah.. I know deep down, You have a better place for her than to be with Mama.. Al-Fatihah... to arwah Mama.. I love her so.. But I love Allah even more..

Salams.. Omigoshh... it's been awhile since I last blogged.. So much has happened.. Have been going through some traumatic changes in life, and somehow regretted on not having the historical trail on blog.. I promise myself i'd keep this blog alive again this morning when I came to realize it was almost dead.. Arrgghhh.. I just wish, and hope... and pray that Allah will bless me with my own flesh and blood children one day.. someday.. today??

Salams,

I am guilty. Guilty for the dismissal of Mama.. Be it whatever medical reason & jargon.. I am miserably sad.. I miss Mama..